Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Am I doing this right?

  I first would like to apologize to my readers: I am so very sorry that I have not posted anything new since October!!  Now with that said I could give you a dozen reasons as to why I did not post anything.  It's not that I ran out of things to say, our story is no where near done!!  It's just hard for me to express a lot of these situations when they are still happening.  Blogging is still new to me and I have so much to share.  I blog because I want families like ours to know their rights and I DO NOT want them to have to suffer the long drawn out process we have/had to!!

 Quite simply I stopped because I got afraid that I wasn't expressing it right. You see for the past 7 years I've pretty much kept our daily lives knowledgeable to our family and close friends(oh and the home care nurses).  After seven years I decided to blog about it ALL.  After seven years I decided to join this online community of parents with special needs kiddos. After starting this blog I started to explore the world of other special needs families.  I have found some amazing blogs written beautifully by some damn strong mamas!!  Oh then I found some more blogs about raising special needs kiddos written by some very courageous dads!  Everyone I find I am grateful for.  I guess in reading all these blogs I started to feel inadequate, silly I know, but true.  I read all these blogs and saw all their followers. Glancing at my followers, I started to fear my blog wasn't worth reading.  I stopped blogging...

  During the holidays while catching up with friends and family I'd give a summary on all things Ethan for the year and a 'what's next' update. Then they'd ask about how everything was going with the school.... they started asking me about my blog.  MY BLOG?!?!  They'd then ask when I would post again!!  I then realized just because they don't have a little avatar under my followers it doesn't mean they aren't reading it or that they don't care about it or me.  I think that whatever or however I am doing this blog it might not be perfect but it's working...it's getting the story out there.  I think I just got over my 'blogging block'.

  So with this stated I will try to post a new blog picking up where I'd stopped in my retelling of our story....I just have a few phone calls to make to make sure I have one side to it accurate.  Also I would like to share that I have recently gone back to school....so I can only blog after I study:)